Just ME

when I was young and little 

so fragile and vulnerable

I grew as years gone by 

Difficult times shape me by

Now I become stronger

But the same as before

Some things never change

Things I never learned to outgrew

I'm still a loner and a dreamer

A bit shy but confident

A coward but a fighter

Never did I thought I was born a winner

So innocent from deep within

When I laugh or smile...you know its pure

And through my eyes you'll see...

pain I long endure...

I try to hide it with a smile

Work hard to giggle for a while

Hoping for wound to mend in time

wishing that someday you'll be

whole again heart of mine

getting worse

its so sad to think that i learned the way of being bad. I learned to fight and depend myself far from before....i knew i'm strong, life teaches me to.I learned the hard way and it etched in my memory...together with that I've change from being a good girl I've used to for so long to a woman with so much hatred and vengeance in the heart. I learned to tolerate my anger and become fearless..my pride..its there since the day i was born.
Now I'm a full blown woman..being a person i am now i know its the result by the person who never treat me right..but thanks to them..i learned to be strong..that leads me too..to missed the person i am before...so patience..could take all the ruthless words anyone can say..the one who never know how to defend her ground....
I miss my old self so well..but it sad to say that I learned a lot from being good and that i'd been hurt so bad by the people who see me as worthless....even though i changed a lot the old me is still in my heart but it is too well hidden that the only person can see it are the person i only care about...

Been Hurt So Bad

day by day I think of you
so long ago i knew i love you
So many times I'd been mad
never thought I would be hurt so bad

memories of you taunting me
bearing the pain on my own
thinking i could be strong
yet i feel weak and about to breakdown

Days move so slow when feeling blue
try to fake a laugh and pretend to smile
Though my mind run a miles
I manage to get by with a gentle smile

Learning to forget you is like impossible
taking hold you in my mind
wishing time can be rewind
since it couldn't be...please catch my last kiss in the wind...

i compose and dedicate this poem to the one who made me cry...to the man who made me wish so hard for him to come back...
i hope that someday i will be able to be back to my old self...that was never been broken by love...though i'd been hurt so bad i learned and it made me stronger...but i wish i could get back the time when i never knew what love is...

saying a little thank You

Lord thank You for letting me pass the Nursing Licensure Exam...thank You so much because it is not only making me happy but also it made my parents happy and proud...and not just my parents but to my grandparents as well...

to the people who stand behind me all this years thank you very much...for the trust and support that you give me...thank you for depending and protecting me to the people who want me down..really want me down..thank you so much for the helping hand that enable me to stand on my ground..thank for the encouragement..and all...
And Dear God thank You for the surprise that You give me..You know what it is...thank You for answering my prayers for quite a long time now..I Love You More..may Your plan and will be it done unto me,,i love You..