i feel all the love in the world surrounds me...and with a smile in my heart i could say that...i am capable of loving again after a long long time....

white love

Its my lola's birthday!!!she is the best grandmother in the world to me, the best mother in the world to all her children..and she will always be...i love you lola...so much that it hurts...it hurt me to see how hard you worked for me and for the family.Thank you for all the sacrifices, the support and the trust you give to me.You are supposed to be enjoying from the fruit of your labor but again you choose to go all the hard way for me to reach this far..though i did my best to make you happy to reciprocate all the good things you give me.. still i feel it in my heart that its not enough and it will never be enough for me. How i wish i could do better every time..God knows how much i wanted to make you happy, wanted to lighten up your load and to make  eveything to be easy for you.

But for now i can do nothing about it but to be a good girl you want me to be. For a long time now, I dream to give you my best someday...on the day when i am capable enough to carry all the loads you shoulder.

I love you lola and oh how i love all those wrinkles, the gray hair and everything about you. I always pray to God for your happiness and good health through out a lifetime. I love you and thank you for playing  a big part of my life..for making me as what i am now..for opening the greater possibilities and for most of the time for helping me out..i will be forever grateful to you and to God Almighty of having you. Take care always because i love you beyond compare and more than life itself .Happy happy birthday! wishing you many more birthday to come, good health, and may all your heart desires will come true.I wanted the best for you and i hope the Lord will grant me the capability to make you happy.. just wanted to make you happy. 

i'm so bless!!

long ago i thought i would never experience the kind of life i have right now ..i thought that it was just a dream..though my life was never been perfect yet the imperfections of it make my life so colorful..so happy... so wonderful and i am so excited in each brand new day of what life brings may it be happiness or sadness i will welcome it with arms wide open.. knowing that everything has its purpose why it happen.I know God would not give me a burden heavier than i can carry and the test of time always bring the best out of me because every time i stumble i learned and that's make me the best of me like i never ever been before...and God love me much..because even the wanton into something i never prayed for..He grant all those though not so fast but it always ended me up with the biggest surprise i could ever hold for the rest of my life...and for that i am blessed more than i could ever think of with so many many things i could no longer count on... the hardship in life thought me to appreciate even the little blessing that come my way and big happiness came from appreciating the little of it that would sum up more and more ..
And to the people who always make me feel so bless: manong vanie.. .aunt Christine..Jinjin..my family and of course my grandparents especially my lola Gloria...to all of you thank you very much for all the kindness and support you all give to me..and to God Almighty for making my life so wonderful who always stand by me every time...thank You for everything Dear God..keep me with You for always...and if trials strike my way help me to fight for it with all of my might You gave to me...I LOVE YOU and i am always YOURS to keep.

It's Always Been You and All Because of You

You are always been a tattoo here in my heart....simply because you are the best thing that happened in my life. Though your gone now, the memories you left behind is worth all my while. I love to remember the way i love you, the way i cried an ocean because of you, the way i was hurt all because of losing you...and i love the way how i'd get up and moved on because every painful days i spent of thinking you can't be mine forever uncover the inner strength i never thought i have. Because of you i realize i am strong enough to handle everything.
I love all the pain, the joy,sorrow and happiness you brought to my life...and right now by simply remembering you I still love you...Its been 6 years already that you've been gone but the feeling never change and I do miss you much...until this time its always been you..that I love..I never known i'm capable of loving someone too much until you unleash that hidden capability i have inside of me.Wherever you are right now I always prayed for your lifetime happiness,contentment in life,good health, abundance in blessings and above all...that the one you be with and you choose to be with for the rest of your life will love you more than the way i have love you...the one who will cherish more than i could...i love you that i am still hurt all this time but thinking that we parted ways because it's God's will is enough to brighten up my day because He uses the painful way i ever known for the BEST of us..i was hurt indeed and i learned the hard way..in a way that even a lifetime memories cannot forget...


I smiled remembering our cheesy jokes ....its crazy yet so funny...I love how you get jealous of someone you thought that caught my eye...I miss the feeling of being secure by just a simple but loving embrace you did..i love all of you...I love your weaknesses...oh how i love the bad side of you..God knows how much...
In this coming days of hearts I will dedicate my day remembering the days we shared.